Sawali

Assalam u Alaikum I'll try to make it brief, I did love marriage in Dec. 2007 and have 3 children 2 boys & 1 girl. Our married life is presently in serious problem. Our financial position has remained good overall and we have passed satisfactory time. During past, about 10 times there had been conflict between us and unfortunately I have been abusive and also beaten her, and she went to her mother ( her mother lives alone as her husband left her when my wife was about 12 years old but not divorsed) for four times in response of my attitude. Her mother always took my wife's side and I always apologized for my behaviour. But my behaviour has not been bad always we have passed good times also, all occasions i.e. Birthdays, Marriage Anniversery, 12 to 15 days outing tours for two times, my children are studying in best school of area and I provide maximum facilities to my family. I have never stopped my wife for going to her family. I was satisfied that we r happy family. But, on 10th September 2016 I came to know about her cheating that she shared her picture to somebody. This was a desaster for me. But I kept myself calm and gently asked her. In start she denied but when I strictly asked she accepted and told that for one year she has been in this relationship. It started in Aug-2015 as that man started talking to her as a female then in 10 days he expressed that he is male, then my wife been angry and in October he again contacted and said sorry. Then in November my wife went to meet him. He dropped my wife to her office in his car and shaked hand with my wife when she was going. No other bad thing was done as per my wife, but he wanted to take her to some restaurant. Then there had no contact as he was busy and again he contacted my wife in mid of August 2016. Then he did sexting with my wife i.e. asking to send kiss picture and other pictures. My wife sent her lips pictures and her own most good pictures modified in software to look more pretty. Then he asked for sexy pictures and convinced her to send. My wife sent two pictures one stretching her shirt down to show her breast line and second pulling her shirt up to show her one breast in breazer. This is all she told and no other naked picture she has sent. As this was unacceptable to me I started checking her facebook and found 6 other relations, and to one of which she sent her normal picture. No sexual talk I found written by my wife but they all praised her beauty and body and she thanked them. In these six relationships two were her ex-lovers to whom she herself contacted on facebook and called also for telling that she is happy and asking them about their life, and then for one month she kept in touch. Other than these six there are other chattings with men around 20, who praised her beauty and my wife thanked them. My observation is that my wife did not talk wrong herself but as the men derived her she always did. She never mind that some other man is taking interest in her. And finally she did the above. This all I came to kbow in 3 months because she was telling lie and during this I also beaten her bitterly for six times. Also kept my behaviour that she is no more wanted to me. But she kept bearing all, which in the past she could not bear. She accepted that all and the reason she told that only internet enjoyment. Still my behaviour was very rude but I felt love for her always. If beaten her then loved her also. For all three months love and angerness both were beibg done. Beating was done as she was not telling the truth and when I beaten she accepted. Finally, on 5th December, I needed some documents and she replied that those are at her mother's house. I asked then she told that I was afraid that if I divorse her atleast she should has her documents. This was also that she did not trust me. Moreover, on the same day a Hi message with her name in a frank manner was received on her mobile and when I asked she said that she doesn't know him, but, message was frank and he also shared his name, but my wife kept saying that she does not know him. I beaten him on that day and she called to her mither, who came and took my wife with her. My mother in law also badly insulted me and said that she can't bear me now and told to have divorse. My wife left with her mother. she always shared her number with men and also accepted male friendship on facebook. After going to her mother's home my wife told her about my behavior and her family is now against me. I'm waiting for their family decision. They are taking all is my mistake and their girl is innocent. I am wrong that I have beaten her. Now tell me what should I do. I still think that she had some sexual relarionships too but I have not found out and she is saying no there had been no sexual relationship all is told to me. I want her back but I don't trust her. She also wants to come and her family will decide in couple of days. Please tell me what I should do. I have three chidren of ages boy 9yrs, girl 8 yrs and boy 2 years. She and her family are taking that Y I've beaten her? And they don't want to listen me and my feelings are nothing. I'm puzzled that should I accept her. My heart says yes but when I look to her past deeds, I can't trust her now.